星期四, 一月 03, 2008

Development frustration

In this new project, i was using Service Facade design pattern to implement Spring + Hibernate.

I wonder why Hibernate Session is always being closed after the program leaves the DAO level.

I am frustrated when trying to manipulate model/models retrieved from DAO by accessing its/their child/children. It always tells me "Session is closed!"

That's really much different than the way i used to do.

Also, i could not manipulate Hibernate Transaction across different calls of services. I could not control when and where to commit or rollback just like what i usually do!

The Common Control also makes me scratching my head a lot! I am still in the process of getting familiar with it. I am now missing much on the traditional Struts + Javascript technique. Anyway, pros and cons always there.

Today bad news came, so, end of this month, have to complete everything! Yeah, another mission impossible!

One sicked, one blinded, one cursed

How can you expect the project to be completed?

炎黃子孫的偉大又一證!



最近读了些风水入门读物,提到一点我从未发现的事实。原来太极图与地球是十分相似的。太极图的阴和阳的一面竟是地球光明和黑暗的一面。加上地球呈椭圆形,其光明与黑暗面就与太极图的阴阳鱼一般!太惊人了!好伟大的发明啊!

相传太极图乃宋朝道士陈抟所作,那可是千多年前的事情了啊!我敬佩于他的智慧!

而后有周敦颐先生解说太极图!

听说一切乃源于河图洛书,也就是一堆奇怪的数字排列,没想到竟暗藏玄机,为今日风水之起源!

星期三, 一月 02, 2008

无为而治

为学日益,为道日损,损之又损,以至于无为。无为而无不为。"(《道德经•四十八章》)

我本以此为鉴,似乎不得其法,事情失控,乃我不得其宗乎?

事到如今,务必温故知新,效得其理,实践其法,多多益善,必日月精进.

喜迎元旦, Happy New Year!

2008元旦至。回顾2007年,悲多于喜,确是不堪回首。

1)事业-停滞不前、碰到瓶颈。
2)爱情-平平淡淡、冷战频频。
3)友情-三五知己、冷冷清清。
4)亲情-父亲仙逝、面具卸去。
5)钱财-基金不俗、股市丰收。
6)休闲-毕览好戏、柬蒲赛游。
7)健康-睡眠不足、病痛频仍。

为新的一年许下新的愿望。

1)事业-自行创业、转大机构壮大基金、遍寻良机。
2)爱情-加额时间、加倍关怀、增添元素、双游天下。
3)友情-广结善缘、慎选活动、慷慨解囊、笑口常开。
4)亲情-倍孝家慈熏陶家妹
5)钱财-善理基金股市续旺
6)休闲-毕阅好书、毕览好戏、毕听好乐、美国之旅?中国之旅?。
7)健康-睡眠充足大病必除定期运动避免破食
8)学业-升阳证书、会计课程、财经硕士、风水处成、乐理初读。

进行中:
1)大病必除

Looking back to year 2007, it is a kind of disastrous year for me...

My career remains stagnant. It seems like i can't grow further. I am afraid of this feeling. I had been looking for the reason and found out that my personality is the one that actually restricts myself a lot. Hence I wish could have a total change of environment so that i could start everything new! I resigned. However i was persuaded by my technical director to give myself a chance again at Melaka branch. Now, i am at Melaka branch. I don't feel happier. Even tough it is much more relax than the previous office. Most probably, is due to there are still people i know is here... i have been trying to turn myself another person. However, the tight deadline has once again put me into a bad situation. I ask myself, do i still want to continue this kind of tension life? Take over my dad's business? As a full time freelancer? Join any MNC in the Klang Valley area? I have a dream, that is to be sent to oversea for training. I believe if i weren't to join the current company last time, i would have already been going oversea either for mission or for training for a few times already. I expect the coming job suits my personality, which is patient and less-communicative. I hope my career will be more towards R&D.

On a full 'Yin' day, my dad had passed away. What could be worst than this? Sadly,during the course of seven '7' week, i did not dream of him at all. My sister dreamed of him during his first '7' week. He was in a wonderland, bringing us the whole family to play around. He was happy according to my sister, he in the end hid inside a leave. What does that mean? I hope the answer is positive. I really really hope dad is there. Whoever out there, can YOU give me the answer?
I couldn't forget the moment. My teardrops could not stop falling while i was cleaning his body. Everything is so stiff, and so cold, blood still in his mouth. Dad, i know you did not want to leave, yet the thing turned out this way. What could me, as a son, as a human, do? Sorry for not always being obedient to you, i actually do remember your advises. They are the treasures that you passed to me. They are priceless.

The funds i bought continue to generate good number of income for me. Of course, it shall not be counted as i did not actually sell them. The achievement i am proud of is, i have helped one of my customers to achieve a 30%++ growth in exactly one year time. When he sold the fund, i could feel his excitement! I was so happy for him too! Imagine, let's say one year ago you invested 10k, right now you will get 13k! Don't you get excited? In the coming years, i expect i will invest in more funds, i wish i will choose the right one every time! Same goes for stock market! I am holding a few, i plan to sell one of them which is less stable in the coming future. The rest of the stocks remain lucrative. Loving them...!

I started to lose my health since few years ago. I think that was due to insufficient rest. There are a few sicknesses keep haunting me. There are 3 major ones. I am now trying to get them cured one by one in the coming year. I could not afford to risk my health anymore. My mom and sister need me!

I was thinking about to join US Summer Camp in year 2008. Right now my dad has passed away, do i still need to persist my dream? In fact, i was in the progress of finding suitable camp to join! Now, bad events had passed, shall i be selfish to get away from my family for 3-6 months? They are worried i could not live well over there...

MBA in Finance, shall i continue to pursue this? I really hope to gain more financial knowledge by taking a master. However, one of my friends suggested me to take ACCA instead. How funny? I am considering this option anyway. MBA, the university that offers this course is quite near to the place i stay. However the price is expensive. I would rather take a foreign U one. The best is to go oversea to study! I think i will start looking for scholarship. Again, shall i just leave my mom and sis like that? i guess the answer is, no way! Perhaps i will consider taking a distant leaning MBA programme.

SCJP, oh my god. It's already 2008. I think my ticket is going to expire soon. I really got to move forward asap!

星期五, 十二月 21, 2007

吸引力法则与道之初探讨

吸引力法则(LAW OF ATTRACTION)与道之间有些什么关系?

难道,它与"引力法则"(LAW OF GRAVITY)一样,是“道”之一?

由“心”而发,以“心”为世间一切之本。

你今日所得到的,都是你在某个时刻发射的讯息的回应!

与儒家“天人合一”之说似乎有相似之处!

与“唯心论”又有关系吗?

王阳明的“格物致知”能在此找到立足点吗?

净空法师最近亦有此类似说词。

未经科学证实的东西,将快被确认了吗?

我,只是纠缠于冰山一角。真理之路,长得很呢。

星期四, 十二月 06, 2007

不寻常的现象

昔佳末除了去年迎来大水灾之外,往年在年尾的雨季都平安无事,现在看来大水灾又要重临了,很不寻常啊!以后的日子该怎么过!

何况,全球都有这样不寻常地现象发生。

天是在开始惩罚人类了吗?

净空法师说,世间灾难皆源自人心所念。

一个人生气,那个力量是足以造成地球负能量的发作的。

这可以以水内晶体会随人情绪所影响为证。

人类何时才能停止一切的恶念呢? 何时才能放开胸襟,宽宏无量呢?

我们要有答案了吗?

星期二, 十月 30, 2007

父亲,就这样走了

就这样。。。走了。

留下的,只是子女们未克献尽孝心的痛苦。

每个星期六,当我还在回家的路途中,父亲往往是第一个致电过来的。

每一次,我都觉得不耐烦,觉得自己会没事安全到家的。可是,我忘了父亲他其实是在关心着我的,这是他给我的无形的爱。

我与父亲向来缺乏沟通,最近几年稍有起色唯亦不足。多的是他的万般叮咛,“早睡、早起”。

他离去之前,我都没好好的遵循他的话。

如今,人都没了,我心悲痛。尤其是替父亲尸身梳洗的那一刻,接触的是冰冷的肌肤!梳洗当儿血还从口流出!他全身发黄,双手五指往内紧收!父亲,我知你不愿就此离去,孩儿实在心如刀割,因无法扭转眼前的残酷事实!孩儿只能可望上天恩赐奇迹啊!而奇迹,又往往是非常的遥远!

前一晚,我在匆忙的归途中,心里还以为只是小事一桩,送院后经过调理该无大碍,怎知竟是与父亲永别之时!

家里血迹斑斑,那味道闻之欲呕!我保持镇静与母亲尽快的处理血迹。不久医院电话急响,心里不祥之感涌现,急忙压下不作他想。电话中,护士催促我们尽快回到医院,医生有重大事情欲与我们讨论。此时已是凌晨一时多,重阳日已过,接下来的卦乃全阴之卦!我父乃注定丧命于今日?

“没办法了,没办法了”,这样的答案从医生口中出来,真让人绝望!我拼命的联络各地医院,无奈各方借故推搪。好不容易有一位医生肯收我父亲,天大喜讯啊!可是,天,您为何不给父亲多几个小时???为何偏在此时夺走了他的性命???

看着血不停的从父亲鼻中喷出,我感到绝望、无助、茫然。。。

医生拉上了布与护士作最后的抢救,我与母亲之能期待阿弥陀佛之力搭救父亲。我闭上了眼睛,念着阿弥陀佛,千丝万缕涌上心头。。。

临时抱佛脚。。。

在那一个全阴卦的星期六的凌晨三时许,母亲抱着父亲的尸身痛哭。。。而我亦在父亲耳边作最后的呼唤。

他,不会醒来了。父子缘尽今世。