A Leap in my life!

They assigned me to take charge of a new module which is considered the largest module for this project. This time the module is larger than the first one i handled. Have been going more than 10 rounds of define meeting which lasts for 2 months already. This module is supposed to come out with one scope only but due to the size of the module, we decided to break into 2 specs. One of them user has required us to start coding by next week already. Another one still needs 2 more rounds of review meeting. By then it will be in the early november already.

The whole module should be completed right before April next year. Me & my team members have been wondering whether 3 of us are able to come out with all the screens on time, some more i need to focus on design specs and a lot of documentation stuff and of course, research too to help up the speed of development. My role is very much different from that last time already. My last role was team lead too but at that time i just started to pick up team leading skills, so everything i managed can be considered quite messy.This time i hope i can do much much better than last time.

Alrite, going back soon. The time now is 11.35pm, i am in singapore waiting for my boss to go back. The reason is i am following his car to singapore and so i need to wait for him to go back kulai. Hehe, the funny thing is i have nothing else to do already out there but they still need to wait for other team to finish thier tasks first. I very very much disagree with the way they do this because I will be willing to stay only if I need to complete my things within the certain time limit, but the fact is i am doing nothing out there and they still require me to stay! Some more it is not possible I can help the other team already because what i can do is not much as i need to follow the progression stictly from the beginning of the enhancement!

The correct WAY?

I realised one thing recently. There are so many things that could happen in this world. There are so many challenges we are going to face everyday. Different people may overcome the problems in different wat and that leads to different outcome. If you are too extreme, maybe you get something very very bad back on you and vice versa. I think, in order to bring the critical situation up to one balance point, we must adopt the concept of 'Moderate'. This is not a new concept and it has been used since very very long time ago. In Confucianism, 'moderate' is always mentioned and you can see the role it plays is very significant. How does moderate solve problem? In this case i am going to use some examples because using example is the best way to visualise a concept. One of the major thinking in Chinese culture is 'Yin' and 'Yang', which specifies the important of balance. Nothing can go over the limit or else it brings disaster. For e.g, whenever there is a good there's always a bad, high & low, pretty & ugly. Do you notice that our world is formed by these elements? The concept of 'moderate' is to get ourselves to be positioned in the most 'balance' point. In case we have conflicts with somebody we know,we could use a lot of methods to deal with the problems. Perhaps we shout at him and end up fighting with blood dripping, perhaps we tolerate him and we high the feeling inside which will gradually spoil our soul. If we try to use the 'moderate' way, we could solve the problem by not hurting both parties's feeling. Ok, that's it for now, i will continue next time to talk about more.

Running out of Time

Time management is an important skill. Recently found myself trapped inside a serious trouble, running out of time, just found there are alot of things i need to do but i dun have time to do. Wat happen actually? Do i manage my time well? Do i spend too much time for only one side? I am now looking for an answer. I want to get rid of the freaking feeling asap. Wat the hell has happened? My mood getting worse n worse and my heart pumping faster n faster. Why there are so many things we need to improve and why this society is so competitive out there and there's always not a space for losers to hide. Damn!

Money?

A friend asked me to give him a hand. To buy a notebook. At total it is nearly RM4000. At first i agreed to help him without hesitation but after that i felt something wrong. Where did i get that big amount of money? I asked him to bank in first buy until now he has not done that. I trust him alot so i wish he won't make me losing faith on him. Money could spoil relationship if we don't handle properly. I guess next time i got to list down the requirements clearly so that v can make sure no further arguments later.

Sifu is leaving

So there goes my master, senior colleague Mr Lim. Here i would like to thank him for guiding me a lot in technical stuff as well as the non-technical one. He like to share his own personal life with me and i have really gained a lot from his stories. In the past i have never been so serious in whatever things i am doing(even for exam) but now, i realize that maybe it's time for me to change. Look at people around us, not everyone of them is always lucky. If you yourself are lucky then you must learn to appreciate, if you found yourself useless then you must make yourself useful. We must always try to improve ourselves in terms of everything, skills, relationships and so on. Try not to turn everyone into your enemy but to make everyone of them your friend.

A good start for my Chinese New Year

Wow, it's totally out of my expectation. What i am saying is, 2 days ago we(me, 2 colleagues from melaka awa boss) went to Singapore for a user requirement's gathering session. The session was done successfully but i found my existence over there was rather meaningless since i had been listening to what they said only all the way. We came back to Kulai at around 6 sumtin and reached there at around 7. Bosses asked us to have a company all staff meeting and we were asked not to bring anything inside. At first our managing director was telling somtin' regarding to our company's business for year 2004. After that our sales director announced that company's gonna give us some award. The managing director then gave us 2 Chinese oranges and an envelope. I opened up the letter and wow, a great increase for my current salary man. It's more than 15 % but less than 25%. Anyway, it's a great great gift for me oledi as i never ever expect i could have my second time salary increment within one year. It's a good start for my Chinese New Year man. Later all of us went for company dinner at a famous restaurant in Kulai. i felt so good! However, there's sum sad point that my senior, Mr Lim is going to leave the company right after Chinese New Year. That means i will definitely have some difficult periods after Chinese new year becuz a new project is going to start then. Here i would like to thank my senior for helping me a lot in a lot of technical thing awa non-technical thing. He's a good leader and i am glad i was once guided by him. I learned a lot of things from him indeed. Thank you Mr. Lim.

Escape From Office

Yesterday i left at 5 sumtin. Boss is a bit unwilling to let me leave that early. Hihi, thanks to my senior colleague, he had bought the ticket from my hometown to Melaka earlier, so he asked boss whether he could leave early because he did not want his ticket money to fly away and boss agreed hihih.

Headache week

Recently got so much pressures from boss. I felt not happy for the whole week. The most important thing is in the high pressure environment i could not concentrate on my job. This has led to slow progress in the coding which might be one of the reasons boss is not going to raise my salary or of not giving me any bonus. One more colleagues are leaving after Chinese new year. I feel so sad and i don't know how long still i could withstand esp. when new projects are coming in. That means one man would take up 10 ppl's job! Just imagine it, by that time, work until 2 3 am in the mid night everyday will become a MUST. This is what i dun wanna face. It's not i am not willing to work hard but what do i gain by putting so much times & efforts? Technical knowledges and Money? how much i got? 2k a month plus free hostel.... It's damn low man !Technical knowledge? come on, that is not important because knowledge keeps changing from day to day! Bosses think i m stupid i m easily bullied. Actually i love the company's environment but now, i really have to start considering other jobs already. If i dun get any bonus or raise after chinese new year. Then i will just leave.

God's crying

For the past few days the weather in Johor has been very cold. It has been raining from day to day. Reading the news about Tsunami in paper, i found as if the god is crying for those who died in the unexpected calamity. This is just a bad present from Christmas. All of us walked into the new year by having a heavy heart. I watched the Live Celebration show in Taiwan, the ppl out there look so happy as if the tragedy has nothing to be bothered. Anyway, prior to the start of countdown, the crowd was asked to pray for the Tsunami victims. I felt better this time because it's proved that human's conscience still exists. Let's send our condolences to the ppl in Sri Langka, India, Indonesia, Thailand, Malaysia and so on...