Yet another 4 year cycle

Time flies. There goes my 4-year again.

4 years back. I was assigned by my company to a local tel-co client. I joined the Enterprise Service Bus team there, where all team members belong to the same company as mine.

I remember i only had 2 days to take over one existing Java Standalone Program, also an "adapter" to the client's back end system. The program owner is a Filipino and he had to fly back to The Philippines two days later. The project phase then was System Integration Test (SIT).

So i spent 2 days with my Filipino colleague for the Knowledge Transfer session. Back then my Java knowledge was not really solid so it was kind of difficult for me. My previous experience was more on web application rather than standalone program. And I had to deal with web services(SOAP/HTML), API (to talk to the back end system), Message Queue and etc. Nowadays i think those stuff are easy but during the first week that I got to learn all these I just felt these were so challenging.

What was my mood back then? I took it easy. I still left office before 8pm. I was telling myself I should not again force myself to work till late nights, like what I did in my first company. One should be willing to work late night that the work result will only be good, that is my realization so far after working for many years.

After my Filipino colleague left, for every SIT issue, the client person in charge would look for me, as i was the successor for the program. They were disappointed that i could not commit to solve every SIT issue within a day. And they sent an email to my boss that they complaint I was not the suitable candidate to take over the program. My boss was kind. He is a very understanding one. He stepped in and helped me to resolve some critical issues. I really wanted to thank him. Till today I still remember his help. I know some people do not really like his working style but that does not affect my gratitude towards him.

Finally the program went live. I enjoyed every moment installing the the prerequisite software for the program to the production server, with root access. I enjoyed deploy the program to the production server with the help from deployment team. I enjoyed working from home for a few days continuously to troubleshoot the production issues of the program. That was really tiring but it was fun as well.

Few weeks later, my company managed to sign a Out Source deal with this client. That means my company will run the client's IT services from infrastructure to every services & systems. That was really a big deal to my company. The deal created a lot of job opportunities. Anyway the contract ended just last month.

So once Out Source deal was signed, my boss moved on to join one of the projects. Subsequently our team changed 3 bosses in one year time. LOL. I remember there was this boss. He has a poker face. He looks a really strict guy. I was kind of worry knowing he was going to be my boss. In fact, he turned up to be quite a good boss to me. He knows how to reject all unnecessary projects. He knows how to prioritize projects for us. I really appreciate his help during his term.

Soon another boss has come to join us. And with his presence our team had turned into Service Oriented Architecture (SOA) team. Actually what changed is just the name of the team and the service methodology.
This boss stayed with us until last month. He is really a good one. All team members really appreciate his guidance. As for myself, i also appreciate much the trust and freedom he has given to me. I can actually conclude that he is the best superior i ever had. His existence is part of the important process of my life, indirectly, but very important.

What interesting is, I have this good friend, an ex-colleague, joined in the same team as me! He started off in another team after the Out Source deal. Then because he was playing with some integration product, due to the nature of work, he finally joined the SOA team. I actually never expected that both of us would end up working in the same team again. He is a special one in my life. He has been introducing a lot of personal improvement stuff to me. He led to to another meditation teacher. I really owe him a lot a lot. I will not mention all the stories here because it will be very lengthy. Ha ha ha.

Few months after SOA team was setup. I became a module lead. I was leading a team working on the java module. Team members came and left. When our company left the client, i had 2 team members left. In the beginning, it was a bit challenging for me to duplicate my experience and knowledge to them because at the same time i was rushing for projects. Fortunately they are very eager to learn about the module. I just needed to spend like 2 or 3 months to coach them and then one of them eventually was taking almost all the works while i just hid behind and provided necessary support to her. I really really appreciate her help in this. She is a good team member.Of course, I have to thank the rest also for their effort. With their help, I managed to get away from getting calls every minute every second. Imagine I once had to entertain calls almost every night or during dinner time. My dinner mate was there to "testify" this. Ha ha.

It was a meaningful 4 years. Not only at job. But in my life as well. I met one senior citizen who actually shared with me a lot of concepts, a lot of knowledge and a lot of interesting stuff. Other than the friend I mentioned earlier, I owe this senior citizen friend a lot a lot too. Of course over the 4 years I managed to get together with all my university mates. We all had crazy memories during our university life. One of them was my daily dinner mate. So in KL, we talked about a lot of craps LOL everyday. We played FIFA in cybercafe and I really enjoyed all the games. We watched a lot of movies and spent much time crap about the movies also.

So, that's my 4 years in KL. It is like dream. What left is only memories. And I forget to mention I almost lost my life 4 years ago in a severe car accident. Just one week before I started my new job. On my trip back to hometown from KL, my car hit the divider of the expressway. Thank divine, thank divine that I managed to survive. Only this year one medium told me that It was the amulet that saved me from the accident. Life is really full of surprise. And now I have come to one crossroad that if I am courageous enough to LIVE MY DREAM.

敬人者人恒敬之 爱人者人恒爱之

我知道　我们之中　有人

满嘴　马来猪　马来猪

马来人　很懒　很笨

马来人这个　马来人那个

然后

天天清晨　受轰炸

每个星期五　大塞车

满嘴 　马来人这个　马来人那个

看新闻

回教恐怖分子　四处作乱

政客　关闭卖猪场

嘴里　就换换咒骂对像　回教这个　回教那个

族人中有害群之马

所有罪名由全族人承担

教徒霸占教义　教徒不明教义　教徒不守教义　

所有罪名就由回教承担

要知道

只要是人　都会很轻易的　成为魔鬼的使徒

无论是什么教徒　贪嗔痴一来　魔鬼也如影随形　乘虚而入

披上正统宗教的外衣　行邪魔之道

要知道

郑和　他是清真教徒　他是回教徒　他是穆斯林

爪哇　曾有九大回教圣徒　几乎个个是中国移民　

加布里天使当初　传谕穆圣

到了今天　教义　竟受歪曲至面目全非

到了今天　竟有人自称能代上天诠释教义　执行教规

到了今天　竟有人把整个宗教当作“族人”的资产　当作配套来贩卖

华人回教徒　奉行回教教义　行中华文化　何来冲突　竟需改名换姓不可　竟需放弃传统？

这些魔鬼代言人　心中　已遗失了　神的光　

魔鬼已附身　可怜

然而　若我们继续　谩骂侮辱　人

我们心中　的光　也会渐渐　湮没

魔鬼也来附我们身

敬人者　人恒敬之　爱人者　人恒爱之

愿诸君　坚持不懈的　守着　“仁”　的精神

奉行“仁”的精神　方能　

重新　照亮　乌黑的心　赶走魔鬼

莫蹉跎青春

我今天

看到自己手頭上的工作

看到他們手頭上的工作

我突然間看到未來

未來的我　也像今天的他們　一樣

不同的是　他們好像很享受　充滿激情

不同的是　我已心如止水　只有　淡淡淡

這里　或者說　這領域　好像已沒什么東西能激起我的熱誠

這種未來　活脫脫是人間煉獄

我真想趕快逃

有什么東西比埋頭苦干數十年后才后悔更冤枉？

上天　我已夢醒了！

我已拋開當年的憧憬了！

上天　我投降了　

我把一切交給運行著神圣秩序的上天

我任由上天處置

我只希望　能成為一位圓滿的人

內心不再分裂　不再需要逃避

不再下班后才成為我！

我要先　謝謝上天！謝謝守護神！

讓我　能享受工作

李宗偉 華裔馬來西亞人

我　衷心希望

李宗偉　能奪得金牌

證明　我們的價值　

證明　這張紅黃藍旗幟　在我們心中　是在世界各地　的身份證

我們　是　華裔馬來西亞人

我們的貢獻　從古至今　良多

我們效勞這里　已久

惟我們的貢獻　常不為極端者所　認可

他們甚至認為　我們與當今之外勞一樣　是寄居者

他們不理會　那些以先賢命名的　路　大廈　花園

寄居者　的第二代　的第三代　還是寄居者

我們的優美母語　富有豐富內涵的母語　這能通往無數經典的工具　在他人眼中　竟是分裂國民之主因

要多一間華小　多一間獨中　難過登天

我們馬來語不流利　腔調不準　就質疑我們的愛國心　

有什么委屈　會比這更委屈！？　最委屈！？

李宗偉　加油！

此刻　國內持不同母語者　都支持你　

此刻　華裔馬來西亞人　的貢獻　都被認可

其實　不管你有沒有贏取　金牌

你的貢獻　你的付出　已是很多很多了

你的貢獻　你的付出　已是太多太多了

南無大慈大悲觀世音菩薩摩訶薩

她說　大慈大悲觀世音菩薩最近有蒞臨

莫非　就是我那天所見到的光？

畢竟　光源自宇宙之母

況且　宇宙之母能有多種化身

其實　各種能量源頭　都歸于宇宙之母

但是　這純粹是我的推測

其實　我應該把此事忘了、放下

繼續　頂禮南無大慈大悲觀世音菩薩摩訶薩

繼續　恭敬的　借助守護神　借助各天使　的力量

繼續　禮拜　上天　感謝　上天

繼續　用對的方式去　許愿

堡壘

你說　上一代

很珍惜工作　很珍惜機會

先付出　不計較　必能看到回報　必能看到

頭家　回報你

你的話　很中肯　我沒說你錯

我們　只是

身處不同的時代

我們這時代　機會很多　

我是說　

替人做牛做馬的機會很多

多到我們可以建起堡壘　

里頭有溫暖的床　不錯的食物　很溫很飽

然后我們習慣了　慵懶了　麻木了

踏出堡壘　腳板踩著一點砂石　就喊疼　回去了

一切終歸于人

當年

她告訴我

能考慮為日本公司效勞

我也不知道她怎么知道我有日本公司的聘約

最終我也沒去

沒多久　我有了某美國公司的聘約

我來找她　我沒提起我有此聘約

她說　有白人公司聘請　就去吧

我去了　就這樣呆了數年

原來

人

還是能決定自己的命運

錯過了某機會　上天仍會安排另一個機會給你

但　不論有多少機會　有多少貴人

人

終究　還是要定奪

正式离开明讯

轻松，好轻松，

正式把东西通通还给你！

我没不舍得，一点都没有

老早我已放下了

老早已毫不在意了

老早心思已不在此处了

是巧合吗？

四年后又要告别了

但这回， 藕断了，丝还连

身在新地方，还会看到许多张旧面孔

继续漠视心底的声音

继续苦闷下去

继续循环继续轮回

何时我能脱出轨道　迈向心中的阳光呢？

上天，我把大志交给你，

在你面前，我实在太卑微，

请给我迹象吧！守护神！

谢谢你们所给我的一切一切！

离开明讯

四年了；

在这里竟已有四年了；



这四年，

从手机响个不停；


到手机响都不响；


从夜半指尖飞快流走于键盘，；


到天天自然醒；

从焦虑赶着救治急病；

到整个系统健健康康；


这经历，确实是两极；


临别在际；

我没有不舍；

反而有一点点开心；

这是上天在指导我吗？

还是守护神在暗中帮忙？

不管、不理、不想；

我将顺着水流走；

哪里有光，我就往哪里去；

跟着上天的指引；

顺顺的走，耐心的走；

心中，没有期待，没有结果，只有过程；

易经说这是变易，而变易是不易的；

佛经说这是无常，而无常是常的；

上天，我要谢谢您；

谢谢您给我这四年的人生经验！

镜子

原来，原来，

原来是这样，

原来他们都是镜子，

让我照，

照出我的样子，

我是镜中人，镜中人是我，

镜中人，口在动，

我仔细听，却听不出一丝声音，

我仔细看，也辨识不了嘴型，

我闭上双目，掩着双耳，

我用“心”去察觉，

倏然，信息如急水，涌入心中，

啊！啊！

我终于恍然大悟！

原来，原来，

原来他们的所作所为，

竟都是我所造成的啊！

Presence of the 'Divine Light'

One night, lying on bed, i was in a semi sleeping mode.

Out of sudden, i felt brightness on top of my head. It was accompanied by a warm sensation.

It's Light. A light which resembles sun light.

I was full of doubts, then I quickily opened my eyes. There was nothing but darkness. Everything was normal.

Days after, i got to know from my Guru that, that's the Divine

Thank You Divine for showing me your Presence!

圣光降臨

那天，臥于床，睡意浓。

意识已模糊 ，即半睡，亦半醒，再往下沉，将全无意识。

突然，突然，突然，

一道光，一道温热的光，一闪而过，划过脑袋！

那光，像阳光般亮

那热，像阳光般热

但这光，非阳光，阳光与深夜，以人类的常识而言，不可能并存。

我惊，我疑，我张开双目，眼前一片漆黑，耳际只有夜深的声音，有呼呼的冷气声伴奏。

后来方知，

那不是我做梦，

那不是我幻想，

那是圣洁的光，

那是来自宇宙之母的光！
 

余的旧博客、部落格

呵呵。无意间找到余十二年前的部落格。献丑了。

看会当年所写。确实带有几分稚气。人都有偏激的时候。呵呵。

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