星期三, 一月 02, 2008

喜迎元旦, Happy New Year!

2008元旦至。回顾2007年,悲多于喜,确是不堪回首。

1)事业-停滞不前、碰到瓶颈。
2)爱情-平平淡淡、冷战频频。
3)友情-三五知己、冷冷清清。
4)亲情-父亲仙逝、面具卸去。
5)钱财-基金不俗、股市丰收。
6)休闲-毕览好戏、柬蒲赛游。
7)健康-睡眠不足、病痛频仍。

为新的一年许下新的愿望。

1)事业-自行创业、转大机构壮大基金、遍寻良机。
2)爱情-加额时间、加倍关怀、增添元素、双游天下。
3)友情-广结善缘、慎选活动、慷慨解囊、笑口常开。
4)亲情-倍孝家慈熏陶家妹
5)钱财-善理基金股市续旺
6)休闲-毕阅好书、毕览好戏、毕听好乐、美国之旅?中国之旅?。
7)健康-睡眠充足大病必除定期运动避免破食
8)学业-升阳证书、会计课程、财经硕士、风水处成、乐理初读。

进行中:
1)大病必除

Looking back to year 2007, it is a kind of disastrous year for me...

My career remains stagnant. It seems like i can't grow further. I am afraid of this feeling. I had been looking for the reason and found out that my personality is the one that actually restricts myself a lot. Hence I wish could have a total change of environment so that i could start everything new! I resigned. However i was persuaded by my technical director to give myself a chance again at Melaka branch. Now, i am at Melaka branch. I don't feel happier. Even tough it is much more relax than the previous office. Most probably, is due to there are still people i know is here... i have been trying to turn myself another person. However, the tight deadline has once again put me into a bad situation. I ask myself, do i still want to continue this kind of tension life? Take over my dad's business? As a full time freelancer? Join any MNC in the Klang Valley area? I have a dream, that is to be sent to oversea for training. I believe if i weren't to join the current company last time, i would have already been going oversea either for mission or for training for a few times already. I expect the coming job suits my personality, which is patient and less-communicative. I hope my career will be more towards R&D.

On a full 'Yin' day, my dad had passed away. What could be worst than this? Sadly,during the course of seven '7' week, i did not dream of him at all. My sister dreamed of him during his first '7' week. He was in a wonderland, bringing us the whole family to play around. He was happy according to my sister, he in the end hid inside a leave. What does that mean? I hope the answer is positive. I really really hope dad is there. Whoever out there, can YOU give me the answer?
I couldn't forget the moment. My teardrops could not stop falling while i was cleaning his body. Everything is so stiff, and so cold, blood still in his mouth. Dad, i know you did not want to leave, yet the thing turned out this way. What could me, as a son, as a human, do? Sorry for not always being obedient to you, i actually do remember your advises. They are the treasures that you passed to me. They are priceless.

The funds i bought continue to generate good number of income for me. Of course, it shall not be counted as i did not actually sell them. The achievement i am proud of is, i have helped one of my customers to achieve a 30%++ growth in exactly one year time. When he sold the fund, i could feel his excitement! I was so happy for him too! Imagine, let's say one year ago you invested 10k, right now you will get 13k! Don't you get excited? In the coming years, i expect i will invest in more funds, i wish i will choose the right one every time! Same goes for stock market! I am holding a few, i plan to sell one of them which is less stable in the coming future. The rest of the stocks remain lucrative. Loving them...!

I started to lose my health since few years ago. I think that was due to insufficient rest. There are a few sicknesses keep haunting me. There are 3 major ones. I am now trying to get them cured one by one in the coming year. I could not afford to risk my health anymore. My mom and sister need me!

I was thinking about to join US Summer Camp in year 2008. Right now my dad has passed away, do i still need to persist my dream? In fact, i was in the progress of finding suitable camp to join! Now, bad events had passed, shall i be selfish to get away from my family for 3-6 months? They are worried i could not live well over there...

MBA in Finance, shall i continue to pursue this? I really hope to gain more financial knowledge by taking a master. However, one of my friends suggested me to take ACCA instead. How funny? I am considering this option anyway. MBA, the university that offers this course is quite near to the place i stay. However the price is expensive. I would rather take a foreign U one. The best is to go oversea to study! I think i will start looking for scholarship. Again, shall i just leave my mom and sis like that? i guess the answer is, no way! Perhaps i will consider taking a distant leaning MBA programme.

SCJP, oh my god. It's already 2008. I think my ticket is going to expire soon. I really got to move forward asap!

星期五, 十二月 21, 2007

吸引力法则与道之初探讨

吸引力法则(LAW OF ATTRACTION)与道之间有些什么关系?

难道,它与"引力法则"(LAW OF GRAVITY)一样,是“道”之一?

由“心”而发,以“心”为世间一切之本。

你今日所得到的,都是你在某个时刻发射的讯息的回应!

与儒家“天人合一”之说似乎有相似之处!

与“唯心论”又有关系吗?

王阳明的“格物致知”能在此找到立足点吗?

净空法师最近亦有此类似说词。

未经科学证实的东西,将快被确认了吗?

我,只是纠缠于冰山一角。真理之路,长得很呢。

星期四, 十二月 06, 2007

不寻常的现象

昔佳末除了去年迎来大水灾之外,往年在年尾的雨季都平安无事,现在看来大水灾又要重临了,很不寻常啊!以后的日子该怎么过!

何况,全球都有这样不寻常地现象发生。

天是在开始惩罚人类了吗?

净空法师说,世间灾难皆源自人心所念。

一个人生气,那个力量是足以造成地球负能量的发作的。

这可以以水内晶体会随人情绪所影响为证。

人类何时才能停止一切的恶念呢? 何时才能放开胸襟,宽宏无量呢?

我们要有答案了吗?

星期二, 十月 30, 2007

父亲,就这样走了

就这样。。。走了。

留下的,只是子女们未克献尽孝心的痛苦。

每个星期六,当我还在回家的路途中,父亲往往是第一个致电过来的。

每一次,我都觉得不耐烦,觉得自己会没事安全到家的。可是,我忘了父亲他其实是在关心着我的,这是他给我的无形的爱。

我与父亲向来缺乏沟通,最近几年稍有起色唯亦不足。多的是他的万般叮咛,“早睡、早起”。

他离去之前,我都没好好的遵循他的话。

如今,人都没了,我心悲痛。尤其是替父亲尸身梳洗的那一刻,接触的是冰冷的肌肤!梳洗当儿血还从口流出!他全身发黄,双手五指往内紧收!父亲,我知你不愿就此离去,孩儿实在心如刀割,因无法扭转眼前的残酷事实!孩儿只能可望上天恩赐奇迹啊!而奇迹,又往往是非常的遥远!

前一晚,我在匆忙的归途中,心里还以为只是小事一桩,送院后经过调理该无大碍,怎知竟是与父亲永别之时!

家里血迹斑斑,那味道闻之欲呕!我保持镇静与母亲尽快的处理血迹。不久医院电话急响,心里不祥之感涌现,急忙压下不作他想。电话中,护士催促我们尽快回到医院,医生有重大事情欲与我们讨论。此时已是凌晨一时多,重阳日已过,接下来的卦乃全阴之卦!我父乃注定丧命于今日?

“没办法了,没办法了”,这样的答案从医生口中出来,真让人绝望!我拼命的联络各地医院,无奈各方借故推搪。好不容易有一位医生肯收我父亲,天大喜讯啊!可是,天,您为何不给父亲多几个小时???为何偏在此时夺走了他的性命???

看着血不停的从父亲鼻中喷出,我感到绝望、无助、茫然。。。

医生拉上了布与护士作最后的抢救,我与母亲之能期待阿弥陀佛之力搭救父亲。我闭上了眼睛,念着阿弥陀佛,千丝万缕涌上心头。。。

临时抱佛脚。。。

在那一个全阴卦的星期六的凌晨三时许,母亲抱着父亲的尸身痛哭。。。而我亦在父亲耳边作最后的呼唤。

他,不会醒来了。父子缘尽今世。

星期四, 十月 11, 2007

新环境,新体验,新心情

道,是怎么样的?

新环境,带来了一些的不确定的元素。

虽然,个个都是熟悉的面孔,然而毕竟前车可鉴,吾杯弓蛇影,最惧不知此蛇乃蛇乎?!

项目,不可能的任务,然而为了明年的打算,苦咬牙关,即使举步维艰仍得踏刃而走。

家里,需费时适应,培养新习惯,还不知可行否。

明年将至,吾仍在混沌矣!创业?国际公司?硕士?资讯工艺?财经?

我仍在努力弄清一切,战战兢兢的拨开一切云雾,寻找埋没在黑暗中地平坦道路。

星期二, 九月 18, 2007

易经小心得

看了一篇有关易经的文章,值得在此与大家分享:

王先生说,在中国不少的古籍文献中,都有太一是万物始母的记载。这也就是说,古人认为物种起源于太一,他的书稿从多方考证,发现了太一在现当代的相关物质名称。太一就是氢元素。发生宇宙大爆炸的太一,是具有极大能量的重氢,在易学界称其为太极。

  那么,在落后的商周之际,古代的人怎么可能知晓这些高深的大难题的呢?王先生讲,这是因为易经的认识方法,大不同于现代人由实践到认识,由感性认识到理性认识的路线,而是运用的一种可以称其为象思维的方法。宋代大理学家朱熹曾讲过,孔子以后,象法失传,遂使后人对易经的研读陷入困境。由此可见,象法对研读易经是个至关重要的问题。

  王先生指出,生象之法就在易经之中。例如咸卦,山泽通气,实乃无心之感应也。艮卦,重山环抱,应当无为以静而生象等。他把易经生象之法,概括为八个字:玩占观象,赏辞修德。占筮,在易经中,只是可玩而不可当真的事情,且目的不在论吉凶。玩占的真正价值,只在于它是生象的重要途径之一。因此,王先生重申:易经的实质,不在占筮,不是迷信。

星期四, 九月 13, 2007

易经研读班 - 首堂课

盼了好久,终于等到上易经课的机会了!

老师好会搞笑,是有点神经质,但他教书生动,善举例加以解说,不错!

第一课很不简单,老师讲解"易传"其中一篇.字数不多,但因乃文言文,所以解释到来几乎花了整堂课的时间!

主要是说伏羲如何创造八卦及其基本理论等等。

我上得兴致勃勃,没想到能亲历期待已久的一天。难道这就是“吸引力法则”的作用?

没想到古来这小地方还能上到这么有素质的课程!老师说他两年来都专著研究在易经,每天从早研究直至凌晨,日日如此,吾真敬佩!

终于上完了课,很满足!老师用多了时间,结果在夜间班主任催促之下教完了第一堂。

星期四, 八月 02, 2007

当外间发生了这么多的奸杀案时,我还在这儿犹豫不决,斟酌着我的前途。

与老板谈了几次,最后还是接受了他的挽留,给我自己及他们一个机会。但是,我坦白的对他说,我想越早离开目前的环境越好。他答应我在九月头我就能在马六甲的分公司上班了。好啊,不用再应付同样的一位顾客了,不知何时才能再回到古来、新山和新加坡,也许会是遥遥无期啊!我是否在以后会想念这里的环境、食物、人群、生活方式、及等等呢?

在做了决定之后,有好多的人需要我去好好交代、有好多地东西需要我去好好处理。感动的是,好些条件比我好的公司都叫我以后辞职时第一时间考虑他们!天啊,现在真需要这么多JAVA人才吗?我以前可认为是不可思议的事情呢!最难堪的是当我尝试向那位工作代理交待时,她的语气是多么的无奈与气愤,我可拖了她两个月之久了,想当然她是对我非常的失望了。我是意识到我错了,所以持续的向她道歉,我也知道于事无补了,所以询问她是否要接我公司的单子,结果可想而知,她当然是拒绝了。

我期待到了新环境后,能好好地妥当安排我生活中的每一件事,不像现在这样因时常超时工作而失去了学习许多别种事物的时间与机会。个人的兴趣广泛,求知欲也强,所以要我像另一位得宠同事把工作当作生活的全部般是非常地困难的。我相信当我在各方面都有了一定的程度之后,必能为公司作出更有素质的贡献,而不是像头牛般埋头苦干,在某个领域默默耕耘,而无法或多或少的影响及参与公司未来走向的决策。

做决定的那一晚,与老板漫谈了数个钟头。感谢他赐予我无数极为宝贵的意见,好让我加以检讨,找出弱点的根源,好对症下药。 我知光阴局促,欲改善弱点非一日之事,故望能循序渐进,随时间的洪流冲击那无常的未来。

星期一, 七月 23, 2007

Choice!

I did not expect the interview with "sexxxx-tx" is successful! I thought it has gone dead as it's been 3 weeks already that i did not hear from the agent that introduced me this job. Today she called me and said there is a good news! First thought came into my mind was: the interview went through! Hahaha, 75% of success rate, i am glad, that means at least i did not waste my time in my first company! I have to thank my boss(who is also my master) for giving me so much chances to grow. Sometimes i just hate myself why can't i be as aggressive as another colleague! He has been advancing so fast, so aggressively and he's about to become another shareholder of my company already! Well, i cannot blame any party even myself, because, there are a lot of factors! Time, Human, Family, Money, Project.... These are what i call fate. However, i believe life is a long battle. You fall behind from someone now does not mean you have no chance to overtake him next time! What i have is time! As long as i won't die so soon.

I am now cracking my head, just to decide which option to choose. The option suggested by boss? Work together with friend? Parked under him by taking an equivalent salary as him? Or to join a company offering flexible time line but lower benefits? What i can tell here is, once i move up, i can no longer achieve the great savings as i am enjoying currently here in Kulai. Kulai is too small. You have nothing to do here, you have no life here, you have no networking activities here. Those things are what i have been longing for! Yet, it is a peaceful town, no traffic jam, less crowded, you do not need to join a long queue just for movie ticket or nice food.

I need to make a decision in the next 24 hours already! Wish me good luck!

大马还有希望吗?!

读了以下新闻,怒火顿时起了三仗!大马还有希望吗?

华人,何时才能摆脱二等公民的地位!我们可悲到希望中国的强盛能带给我们那一点点的好处!

为什么他们会为深为强盗感到光荣?他们不知道如果这片土地没有华人,社会是会多么的封闭、落后吗!

强制宗教又如何?还不是干下了一连串违反道德的事情!

你们有没有用脑想的!

看看吧!

星期六, 七月 21, 2007

生而弗有,为而弗恃,功成而不居

好忙!辞职了还是要像以往般昏天暗地。还好,主要的项目还是顺利的完成了!

终于辞职了!三年,不舍还得舍,感谢身兼师傅的老板,希望再次见面时我已与您平起平坐,不负您所教,为您争光,呵呵!

亦听了很多人的宝贵意见!感谢他们!

希望以后有时间能好好地经营我的网志,改善参差不齐的弱点。

希望有时间在下班后学我欲所学!

柬蒲赛之游的照片,还没上载啊!

星期四, 六月 14, 2007

连续的打枪复轮奸案,天理何在?

短短一个月内,新山市竟发生了三宗的打枪复轮奸案,受害者还包括了身怀六甲的孕妇,真岂有此理!







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星期一, 六月 04, 2007

柬埔寨游记-第五天

今天是我在今次柬蒲赛之旅睡得最迟的一天,当地时间早上大约九点多就起床了。在准备就绪后,提起背包与相机就往市区去,打算闲诳一番。其实有点担心在拥挤热闹、熙来攘往的市区会不会遇到什么匪徒,毕竟我是单独行走的。很幸运的,我的担心与谨慎只持续了一阵子而已,那种心情被我的另外一种美好心情所覆盖了,因为我实在是太享受这种想往哪儿去就往哪儿去的生活了。我感到过去的我就像一只笼中鸟,一直活在别人的眼界下,太过在意别人对我的看法了。我们不是应该掌握自己的生活吗,我们不是应该决定自己的下一步是怎么走的吗?别人对你怎么看是如此的重要吗?我为何如此害怕转换过程中会所受的屈辱?没有低过头生活,会有成功的一天吗?我要好好得想想看,考虑接下来的路该怎么走。

就在我想着这些事的当儿,思绪突然间被打断了,眼见正前方有一个小挡口,正卖着当地的烤香蕉。在大马,香蕉通常是沾了面粉在油窝里炸的,而在这儿的竟然是用全烤的。档主长了一副诚恳地样子,让人看了感觉舒服。我想问他价钱,然而他并不会说英语。好在隔壁有个好心的“aunty”也尝试充当协调员,在她的帮助下,我才顺利的买到香蕉。三条共5000里尔。在诳市集的当儿吃了。食物方面,本人并不觉得很喜欢,总嫌过于干燥,不如我们的炸香蕉糕来得入味,但是总算满足了我的好奇心。


一串串的烤香蕉,让我大开眼界,真“排写”(闽南语,不好意思的意思)。

我断断续续的边走边拍照,同时体验着人来人往的那股生气。整体感觉杂、乱、但安全。好些档主拼命想留下我好让我买他们的东西,但我让他们失望了。只因我接下来的计划还需要用到金钱啊!而当时我也只剩些许的金钱而已。无论如何,整个早上我没什么收获,就只是大开了眼界而已,这种感觉,我想,是读了书也无法体验的。这种东西,叫做感觉。它不是虚拟的,而是真实的!

在市集内看到了这种食物,用了好多的糖来腌,很特别,蛮受当地人的欢迎的。

呵呵,咖喱角。对我们大马人而言,是在也熟悉不过了的。

他们不知拿了什么昆虫来炸,类似蚱蜢之类的,色香味之中,色已大打了折扣!

到了中午时刻,我去了一间著名的餐厅,叫做“死鱼”(DEADFISH)。餐厅的布置有点奇特,不过是属于西式的,由于是午间,所以只有两名顾客。我点了一杯苹果汁和阿莫克(AMOK)。嗯,很不错,当时煮法似乎与在“高棉厨房”(KHMER KITCHEN)的有点不同,这个会比较辣一点。吃着当儿,突然间下起了雨来,我默默的享受着悦耳的爵士乐与雨点滴滴答答所融合成的另类交响曲。我的心,很沉静,这似乎是我找了很久的一种境界,懒懒散散地,真想要让当时的时间静止不动。慢慢的,待雨势小了些后,我便心满意足的离开了,好一个精神上的升华。由于看来待会可能会再下一场雨,所以我加快步伐就赶回去客栈,进入午间的梦乡。

“死鱼”餐厅内的阿莫克(AMOK)。


醒来后已是傍晚时分,我再次前往坐落在市区的市集走去,这次我对自己说无论如何都要买到纪念品了。我环绕了好多的挡口,停留在一间据说才经营不久的商店。招待我的女孩长的楚楚可怜、说话低声细语,非常的吸引人,可能这就是我向她买东西的原因吧!我相中了好些东西,向那女孩要求些折扣,她也非常爽快的答应了我开出的价钱。可能我开得不是很好吧!不知她有没有暗自偷笑,好一个财神爷!我向来不善于讨价还价,这也是造成我事业有阻碍的原因,我是应该狠下心肠,用工进修此道吗?还是坚持自我呢?有阴必有阳,我得放弃一些东西啊!我考虑清楚了吗?
市区上也有好多的按摩院,院外有好多的女孩等着顾客或者派传单。他们都身穿不同的制服,非常的整齐好看。而且,他们都是正统的按摩院,并不附有性服务的。我选了其中一家,作了全身油性按摩,让前几天被累坏了的身躯放松一下,享受穴道上的刺激。

一小时后,我在附近的西式咖啡厅喝咖啡,咖啡厅就坐落在十字街头,我得到了非常好地观望角度。我一个人静静的喝着咖啡,眼望四方,耳听八方。街头的人群熙来攘往,好多的游客来来去去,与我四目交流,似乎在彼此祝福对方,有个愉快的、充实的旅程。有个当地的城市保安在那儿驻守着,我看他一直坐立不安,来回地走,看来这不是简单的工作,它这是需要耐心的。还有好多的“嘟嘟”司机在街角等候顾客,艰难的等待可能一天就只有那么一位地顾客。在资本主义膨胀,在价值观被歪曲下,生活,就是那么的困难。此时我想到第一天去洞里萨湖沿途中所看到的裸身小孩们,他们是玩得多么的开心啊!

晚间,司机带我吃了当地的“丰盛”一餐。原来是烤小鸟、牛肉、还有各种新鲜未经煮熟的蔬菜。其实我并不能吃牛肉,这我已告诉了司机,但我并没通知他我也不怎么吃野味。无论如何,我最后还是吃了。当地人有生产一些奇怪的酱料,味道有点奇怪,是用来沾牛肉和蔬菜的,我并不太能体会它的美味,所以没什么吃。烤鸟还不错,配上另一种特制的咸味酱料,不错!老板非常的热情,原来他是爱康的会员,上线也是大马人,我们说了好多的话,气氛非常愉快!

至于司机呢,就一直和我分享他的性经验,包括和某些独身女游客上床。这些女游客还有日本人呢!看来他也没说骗话。说着说着,他还问我要不要试试本地女人,说真的,本地女人的身材都非常好呢,这个司机弄得我心痒痒。真是的。

就这样,我对暹粒之旅的告别之夜。第二天我就要回到大马了!

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